Grief claws at my chest like a relentless monster, my tears wetting the soil.
A tragic gothic tale of love and suffering - prepare to have your heart ripped out from your chest.
Low-action character-focused books are a bit of a departure from my usual reads, and not having read any of Beronika’s past works, I went in with modest expecations. But I adored every single aspect of this book. It will likely remain one of my all time favorite vampire stories.
First and foremost, I loved the presentation. We are thrown into the disoriented mind of Isla with no hand-holding whatsoever. She wakes up after a dangerous accident with no memory of what happened, and from the perspective of her fractured mind, we discover both the events leading up to the accident, and her past - a moribund life transformed by the enigmatic Dr. Todd - her savior, then her lover.
I swallow a knot, not wanting to admit how the path of reality keeps morphing into a maze.
The author wonderfully captures the messiness of complicated medical conditions, the pervasive uncertainty, the pain of seeing your relished experiences growing distant with every passing breath, and the joy of brief moments of lucidity before the next inevitable lapse of mind. It was heartwarming to see that no matter how far their condition deteriorated, the affection between Isla and Dr. Todd never wavers. Even as their memories of key events and people in their life slowly slip away, they never leave each other’s side.
Dr. Todd, in the many dimensions of his character remains amazing throughout, esp. how the premise of how his strange affliction led to his lifelong pursuit of discovery. His choices, his compassion for the patients, how he always considered himself a doctor first and a vampire second, were all deeply touching. Beyond that the author’s rendering of the gothic ambiance was breathtaking, as was Daisy’s role.
A place like this needs vampires— so much so that becoming one feels like destiny.
Creative non-linear presentations have always been close to my heart, and this was no exception. In particular, the way the author contrasts the recollection of Isla’s first transformation as she lives through the second, was masterfully done.
If someone had just described or summarized the plot of this book to me, I’d have said with absolutely certainty that it isn’t for me. But I am glad to have discovered it through first-hand experience, for it surely has changed me as a reader.
The ending will likely leave you devastated, but the journey is absolutely worth it.
I throw my arms out to catch myself but only manage to grasp at the edge of reality.